i wish.....

 yarr!!

this is not good,

u know wat!
when i saw him last?

it was late at night, of winter .
eshal was in my lap,
and i was looking at him,

he was looking.....

absolutly gorgeous,
i cant tel how much,
but that was the first and till now the last time
when he was realy looking like his uni. pic.

i often think he wil look more beautiful
and awesomeness in beard ,even  a short beard,
for whatever but beard is the sign of manliness
and it realy  bring a special kind of softness on face,
maybe because the beardline hide away or else
i dont know,

but i realy wish so much that only once
i may see how he might look in beard,
just like all face threading brings a hammer like look
on women's face same i think effects occur on men's face.

wel whatever,
i was saying that
i saw him last time that night
i was so much worried that night,
for i was unaware what istekhara might come,
and .............
let me not remember al that time.

how much Allah swt aids me,
and helps me in my woes,
i can just imagine
how great is my Lord!

i dont know when i wil b able to c him again,
he is so .......... adamantly behaving.
what i do now :(

just i wanna c him for 1 sec,
just once

he is so nice
mashaAllah
mashaAllah

dont wanna jinx him
i love his decent sense of humour,
they make me smile for long ,when ever comes in mind,
i stil think about "chattan " :)
may Allah swt bless him always and always
and all his dreams comes true in the best of way
with all the khair of both world,
aameen sum aameen