me & he

these are exectly the two stars i look daily from my house roof,

first time i noticed them i said in my heart

oh two stars! one so shining ,making the smaller one prominent
looking so nice with each other,
perfect place for both.

i feel like its me & he,
the brighter one is he & the less brighter & small one is me

wel whatever

i like looking at these two stars whenever i went upstairs at night

may he have a veryyy good & luck time at his convocation
which i think being ended or about to end til now

may Allah swt bless him always & always
aameen sum aameen
birahmatika ya-arrhamur rahimeen

garmi-e hasrate nakam say jal jatay hain

bulbul ko baghban say na sayyad say gilla,
qismet may qaid likhi thi fasl-e bahar main
, din zindagi k khatam huay shaam hogaie,
phaila k paoon soain gay kanj mizar may...
( hey! wats kanj mizar? i dont know myself :) )

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Garmiye hasrat-e-nakaam se jal jaate hain
Hum chiraagon ki tarah shaam se jal jaate hain
shamma jis mehfil may jelti hay numayish k liye,
hum ussi bazem may gumnam say mer jatay hain,

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sift-e shamma lahad murda hay mehfil meri ,
aah! aye raat bari door hay manzil meri,
( hey im waiting for a blessive death... its my teenage dream,
but none get it himself, its only in Allah swt's hand to whomever he grant such blessive death)

i hope.............

janay kiyon dil udass hay,
ishq hota to koi baat bhi thi.
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jinsay mil na paya may is jahan may kahin,
roh ben ker miloon ga unsay asman pay kahin
k piyar is dherti per
farishton saay ho nahi sakta
...
..

miss him
.....

...
............
but everything wil b fine inshaAllah
i hope....

not yet...

Longing has struck us indeed, though it never stroke us before
We ended up yearning for each other, as if the farewell is to be now
It's too early for pain to be revived inside of us by sorrows, it's too early for rimes to be mourned by our nights
We had our good days, filled with serenity and mildness, breathing in the breeze and keeping the company of the precious ones
We won't forget the love, no matter how much it's languished with our condition, and the days that we spent in God's guidance will remain to be the glow of the expectations
Before the farewell there were stars, which disappeared and remained above, today we tried to forget, but the longing has defeated us

dont know......

In all Truthfulness
Promise me you wont hurt my feelings
Who can I complain (speak) to other than you
when the world becomes so harsh

In all Truthfulness
Don't leave me
with all my worries.. counting my steps
My heart is torturing me .. and my thoughts are wandering (to the sky)

In all Truthfulness
Dont forget me if you want to part from me
i don't want that day to come.. when I destroy my dignity

m trying to find path in the meloncholich gloom....

u know?......

im very sad

...

many daYS passed by &

he didnt reply.

u know?

i have stopped mailing him

& the hope of geting mail from him

but..........

one day

i recieved his mail

which again removed the barrier from my sides

,i mean the restriction which i put on myself

he make me addicted to him
&

then......

he went away....

& i left in my gloom again.

wel, its ok

he is always in my thought

i keep watching him in imaginations

wish best of luck for him

wish to keep praying for him til the last breath

....no dont wish to forget him


never ever,,,,,

may he always live happily whereever he maybe
aameen sum aameen
i wil not disturb him again

though i greatly wish to mail him

to read something from him

but.....

yes, :-< i must not disturb him anymore



he has made me a tramp

im a vagrant now

he has demlished my all places to rest at

no way left for me to return

other than to keep wandering in the gloomy jungle of myheart


wish best of luck for him

praying for him is stil my relaxation.

....
..........
........
              ~just a tramp

all that carved deep inside heaert

i dont know how many days have been passed,

let me remember ,...oh yes! last mail i got 4m him was on 15th july.

very last one. nothing now,
just remains memories.
i dont know what he will be thinking right now,?
i think must be sleeping
or mytbe at work.
i wish to have a magical ball .so i can see him
but all time is for to pass,
he said i wil b fine
& sure i am ,
since im not dying
nor becoming sick
& heart's pain count nothing.
i miss him each moment
but inshaAllah i wil not commit the sin again
its al in Allah swt hand
hope he wil b so fine,since he always told me that
his likings for me are not like my liking 4 him
so sure he wil be fine inshaAllah
he was having his new laptop on 17th ,friday.
i was wishing to ask 4m him about his new laptop
but i stopped
dont wanna disturb
him any more,
i often close my eyes,
feels his smiling face
& open the eyes after a smile too.
hope my all prayers for
his bright future wil b accepted soon with all the blessings inshaAllah

no, everyone is wrong,
wil never b able to forget him
he wil always b in my thoughts inshaAllah
inshaAllah
dont want to forget him
, i dont want anyone else.
& i m so hopeful that inshaAllah none other man wil ever come in my life too inshaAllah
hope my this prayers wil must b accepted inshaAllah
for its not impossible,
i know im stupid
but im keeping the hope of meeting
& wil always keep this hope
NO WAY TO FORGET HIM
EXCEPT THIS THAT
I MAY RAN OUT OF MY MEMORIES................
HARD .....SO HARD BUT HAVE TO BARE
AS THIS ALL WAS MY OWN FAULT
MAY HE LIVE HAPPILY EVER 7 EVER WITH BEST OF HEALTH IMAN & WEATH
AAMEEN SUM AAMEEN
BIRAHMATIKA YA ARRHAMURAHIMEEN.

WAKING UP EVERY MORNING,
& checking the mail is stil my routine
though no more
his mail
but stil i
open the inbox daily
& quench my thirst 4 him
by reading his old mails
...time to go
...........
ALLAH HAFIZ